On a Second Note...

I just feel like I need to keep writing. I have so much to say... so much I've been thinking about.

This year has been a whirlwind- some of the best days of my life and some of the worst. It’s difficult to find the words to describe how this year has unfolded and how it has impacted me. So many things have changed the way I think and how I want to live. I’ve been stubborn and prideful, always trying to do things on my own because I felt as though I had something to prove. But I didn’t… it was just fear.

I’ve since recognized that about myself. It wasn’t until a scripture grabbed hold of me and broke me down enough to ask God for help. All I needed had been right in front of me the whole time; I just chose not to listen.

"Fear not, for I am with you; do not look around you in terror and be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen and harden you to difficulties, yes, I will help you; yes, I will hold you up and retain you with my {victorious} right hand of rightness and justice." -Isaiah 41:10

 I’m so grateful… I don’t know how I haven’t lost my marbles with all the difficulties this year brought along with it. As I said in my previous blog, I’ve wandered further than I’d like to admit; but God has other plans. He has continuously strengthened and hardened me so that I could be more of the person He needs me to be and less of who I think I should be. I’ve realized had it not been for the challenges of the year, I would not be who I am and where I am at this moment… and it’s all been worth it.


And so begins my journey…